Think of it this way: if your son asked you for bread, would you give him a stone? Of course not—you would give him a loaf of bread. If your son asked for a fish, would you give him a snake? No, to be sure, you would give him a fish—the best fish you could find. So if you, who are sinful, know how to give your children good gifts, how much more so does your Father in heaven, who is perfect, know how to give great gifts to His children!
Matthew 7:9-11 (The Voice)
I’ve read this verse hundreds of times. I knew it in my head, yet it was still so hard to believe. It was easy to believe it could be true for other people. It was a lot harder to believe it was true for myself. I have not acted like I believe God wants to give me good gifts. My actions have shown I only feel worthy for the leftovers — like I have to beg to get what I need.
Over the last months, I have started to see a shift in my thinking patterns. I have seen myself as loved for who I am. I have started to believe that God was also upset about what happened to me. The hurt I experienced was not a price that He was demanding. He hasn’t given me just enough so I can continue to be useful to Him. He loved me as a beloved child.
I have begun to recognize how often I don’t ask God for what I really want. I have been practicing honesty and asking for what I really want. Asking is not demanding. I am learning how to tell God what I want and trust He wants what is best for me.
I have asked and I have received so much more than I expected. I am learning how loved I am by a God who desires to give me good gifts. Some of the gifts were different from what I would have expected — but they have been good.