I came back from Japan with very little direction for my future. It was hard to think about what might come next. I just knew I needed to put one foot in front of the other and get healthy.
Those first months back, I was so tired. I was only working a minimum number of hours each week. I didn’t do much else outside of the home. This has left me with lots of time to read and research.
I’ve read about poverty, micro-finance, education, orphan care, women’s rights. At times I would go to the library and just browse until I had a stack of books that I wanted. I would check out 10-15 books, skim most of them and actually read 2 or 3.
I still don’t know what is next, but I do have a better idea. I know what I would like to do. I have ideas about what makes me excited. I’m not at a point where I’m quite ready to take action and move forward. I’m definitely not at a point where I am ready to share publicly what those ideas are.
Being in Guatemala this summer, I was even more convinced that I will get back into the classroom. I want to work with children in some capacity. The place where I am happiest is with the situations where it looks impossible at the outset. I love taking the marginalize, the overlooked, and those who are behind and giving them hope. We might not see complete turnaround, but I love the challenge of making positive change seem achievable.
I have also come to realize, I love starting things. Give me a mess or a broken system, and I find enjoyment in making it into something workable. I can take an idea or a need and turn it into a project or a solution.
I’m not entirely sure where this will lead. I don’t know what the future will hold. I have idea. Those ideas make me happy and excited. Right now this is enough. I am starting to have a vision for my future.